I was speaking with my local GP and we were discussing me seeing a therapist and I mentioned how happy I was today and how listening to a lot of different music has just made me really happy.
It’s hard to think of a lot of music and a lot of songs that weren’t tied to her and that really sucks, but I have to remember that they exist completely independent from both of us and maybe I can think on them fondly and have her connected with them, at least they were happy memories. Happiness is what counts.
Anyway, I was floating through my old iPod which I keep on top of my CD collection as a weird like evolutionary stack. This track came up and I just like how it reminds me of a different time and I was happy then and this song just reminds me of that happiness, even alone.
They have a sample just after the 2:30 mark which says : “Something good is going to happen to you”. And you know what something good happens to me everyday, especially in this spring weather. I am comfortably warm, I get to walk around and enjoy the streets of where I live as they flourish and change from brown husks into blooming greens and I can listen to podcasts that make me laugh until I cry and listen to music that makes me feel everything from heartbreaking sorrow to pure, unfiltered and spring-steppin’ joy.
Today was good. Literally the worst thing that happened was I coughed hard when I woke up and I spilt a mug of water.
TL;DR I’m not sad all the time which is so awesome and better than how I felt this time last week. I’m taking care of myself and I love a lot of the music I’m listening to, rediscovering and playing.